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addiction | Deciding to go of tramadol Well after never taking a tablet before in my life, I got these for a back injury end up addicted to the buzz and feeling of them, amazing, now I'm taking up to 800mg and barely feeling a buzz, going to go back to weed for at least a week.
I'll still take them after I detox for a while because I do need them for my back but I'll only be sticking to x1 200MG. Going cold turkey for a week or two until my tolerance drops to feel more effects and feel like there helping me again.
The only thing is, the withdrawels are horrible, worse than herion according to many H addicts, wish my luck, as this will be panic, anxiety inducing hell with burning skin, cold sweats, so weak I can't walk, every bone on my body hurts, my hair hurts, breathing hurts
Wish me luck |
addiction | My vyvanse addiction... It has gotten pretty bad yesterday I went without taking it, it was a living hell I got mega depressed, I was so cold, the cravings where to the point I was going to dose I had many withdraw symptoms I don't want to go through that again but i know i will at a point. |
addiction | Quitting coke and nicotine I'm gonna start by saying I've been doing really well and am very proud of myself. I haven't done coke in over 10 weeks now, which is the longest time I can remember, probably the longest time in 9 or 10 years. I've tried to get it twice, which isn't great, but it didn't pan out and I didn't try very hard or care that much when I couldn't.
As for nicotine, I'd been vaping for 2 or 3 years. My vape broke recently and instead of buying another one I figured I'd quit. I gotta say, I really miss vaping, but it was pretty excessive. I would wake up and immediately reach for my vape. Any time I had even a second of inactivity I'd reach for it. It's nice to not be attached to it anymore. I've bought 3 packs of cigarettes since I broke the vape, a period of about a month. So not horrible, but I hate cigarettes. I hate smelling like them, I hate tasting them after having one, but God did that first one feel way better than it should have.
Unfortunately I have been undergoing an immensely stressful period because of my work, which is a bad time to try and quit addictive drugs, but the stress came about after I'd already decided to quit so I couldn't exactly plan around it.
I guess I just wanted to vent a bit. I just had a cigarette on my break and I smell awful. I can reliably get a few days without nicotine but I usually crack at that point. I'm happy with reduced consumption but I really wanna stop altogether.
Thanks for reading. |
addiction | Is it OK to leave a drug addict you love? Many details now. My gf (of a little over five years) became addicted to opioids about two years ago. She hid it pretty well from everyone she's close to, including me at first. She told me about it and started suboxone treatment about a year into her addiction. Everything seemed to be going fine, but then in spring of 2017, she lost a sequence of jobs, and started to unravel in general because she was still using despite being on suboxone, and she just wasn't able to "control" her habit as well as she once could. Fast forward to August of 2017, drug-related legal trouble is looming, and she entered inpatient rehab, which she completed after about six weeks. I let her move in with me when she got out. She was unpacking her things and found some drugs, which I found her using (found her passed out on the floor of the bathroom)...relapse #1. I confronted her about it, tried to understand, and moved on. She started an intensive outpatient program shortly after as part of her recovery, had been going to meetings, etc., and all seemed good except for the single incident. Then, last week, I discovered some heroin she had purchased from the dark web, which I flushed. She refuses to discuss it. All she'll do is say she "wasn't thinking straight," and her solution was for me to kick her out, putting the onus of dealing with this firmly on me. I also know that she's been purchasing bitcoin as recently as two days ago, which is a huge red flag that she may try again.
One final detail to note is that she is very resistant to any kind of talk therapy, and my impression based on her recounting of events is she just went through the motions while in rehab. Also fairly sure she has an undiagnosed personality disorder...while not diagnostically 100% borderline personality, she's pretty damn close, and this just complicates things even further.
What do I need to do / should I be doing. I'm about at my wit's end, and I'm about to kick her out, but I do have very strong feelings for her (we've been through a lot together and had an overall intensely rocky relationship aside from dealing with her addiction), and I don't want to be the guy who abandoned his girlfriend when she theoretically needs me the most (I realize that letting her stay in my house and my life in general is a kind of enabling behavior, but another complicating factor is that she's completely alienated her family over this despite THEIR best efforts to help her, so I'm all she's got). I know my thinking reeks of codependency, but I can't help feeling the way I do and really need some perspective on the whole mess, as any that I once had is long gone. Advice of all kinds is welcomed and appreciated. Throwaway email and account.
TL;DR: What is my move with a long-term gf who has emotional/personality issues, failed rehab, and continues to acquire opioids? |
addiction | My brother has a problem I'm not against weed. I just think that too much of anything can't be good for you. He smokes three times a day, on his way to school, after school and in the afternoon. He's been catched doing it inside the school also. He does it in the bathroom of our house, on the roof, everywhere.
My parents are aware and we all support him and care for him, no one judges. But we all think he was a problem. He does it too much and I don't know how to help him. He has a very "tough guy" personality. He is agressive and gets mad easily.
He's only 16. I just want him to have a good life, but weed is his priority, he just wants to smoke all day and he doesn't care about his future. And what scares me the most is that he might want to do other stuff, like more dangerous and addictive drugs.
We are just looking to handle this the best way possible, but we are not sure how. Any advice? |
addiction | I have a buddy and he is hitting the methadone clinic today. I feel sorry for him but it also implies something It implies that he is doing heroin or he would have gone to clinic already. :( |
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addiction | Alcoholism + E.D. + trich anyone have a history of of above addictions / tics/ impulse control issues compounded together? I’ve struggled with binge eating / non-purging bulimia and trichitillomania and cyclical alcohol abuse issues for a decade. It’s hard to focus on just one though it’s been easiest to just ignore the trich because, though I hate having ultra short hair all the time and counting the days til people notice my balding patches, trich doesn’t reduce my overall life quality like binge eating and booze. So.... I’m asking for any advice from those dealing with anything comparable. I’ve got plenty of things going for me in my life, but constantly fighting these battles (despite years of therapy and AA) is so damn draining, |
addiction | My New Years resolution: to kick the porn habit. For the last 4 years, the porn and sex industry has been a huge factor in my life. At my “peak” watching years, I would masturbate 3-4, sometimes 5-6 times a day, most of the time when I was just bored and had nothing to do. I would wake up in the middle of the night to masturbate. At one point, I had 30+ incognito tabs of different porn star profiles that I would rotate through.
Then, a couple months ago, I started having problems. It would take me a while to get a solid erection, and when I did, my climax would be lackluster. I started to regret doing it every time I was done. I knew I had to stop, but I kept going. But now, with the new year coming in, I want to get this problem out of my life, and I just don’t know how. I had been eating correctly and working out almost every day for most of 2017, but there was also family issues in the last couple years as from about 2013 to now, my mom has been in and out of rehab for alcoholism.
I’m just a teenager (15). The last thing I need is to have this problem hanging over especially with my role in the family increasing with my moms problems. If anyone has had any problems with this type of addiction and knows how to overcome it, I’m open to all suggestions. I’d rather not come out with the information to my dad, but if it would help my situation and help me come to terms with my addiction, I’ll do it.
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addiction | Can I “kidnap” a drug addict if it is for their own good? Someone I care SO MUCH about has fallen on hard times and developed a meth addiction this past year. He is a truly wonderful person and the funniest guy I (used to) know. He says he doesn’t want to quit, but I don’t believe him for one second. I think he doesn’t know how to quit and besides, he is the most stubborn person I have ever known.
Could I “kidnap” him (lie and get him to come with me) and "lock him up" until he withdraws and recovers? I live in California and he is in Texas. What kind of trouble would I get in? What other options do I have? I’m scared to death that he will kill himself or someone else! |
addiction | My boyfriend just quit opiates - how can I help? My boyfriend has been addicted to poppy seed tea for about 2 years (we've been together 3 years). He's 23, I'm 25. I didn't realize how bad it was until recently, and I told him he has to get clean or I'm leaving him. I love him so much and want to do everything I can to help him get clean, but I'm struggling with the line between being supportive and enabling/coddling him.
He's going to meet with someone at a rehab (recommended by his primary care doctor) this week, and he's already been clean for a couple days and is having serious withdrawals.
My question is, what can I do?
He's been trying to get clean for over 6 months now - and I've caught him relapsing 3 times in the past month. He has a guy he works with who sells lortab, so he could easily get that without my knowing. I know it'd show up on a drug test, but I want to prevent that from even happening.
Is it too extreme to take control of his finances and give him an "allowance" to make sure he's not buying drugs?
I've never been one to even go through his phone or anything so that level of "crazy girlfriend" is weird to me, but I think it might be necessary.
We plan on spending our lives together, and in every other way he really is amazing, and I don't want to lose him over this fucking addiction.
Any advice on how I should be handling this would be really appreciated. I'm really stressed out and worried that I'm going to lose him. |
addiction | Question about possible protracted withdrawals from etizolam Hi, i’m 24 years old 175 lbs and i stopped taking etizolam cold turkey about 5 weeks ago after taking 2-3mg daily for 8 weeks.
After the first week hell, i felt on the upswing, but i still have had good days and bad days for the past month. Is it possible for me to have protracted withdrawal syndrome? Recently after a couple weeks of relative normalcy i’ve had much more muscle pain, fatigue, and trouble sleeping than usual. I’v also had some stomach trouble but i also have GERD. Was my usage serious enough for me to have PAWS? |
addiction | Looking for something like Liquidrecovery My friend told me about this for people who are in recovery: https://theliquidrecovery.com/am-formula/
However when I try to checkout, I cannot ship to California. Does anyone know of a similar product?
Thanks! |
addiction | Friend needs help Hi I came here because I have no idea what I could say to my friend about this matter.
I've been aware he constantly uses prescription drugs, smokes weed, vapes strange "CBD juice", and who knows what else. However I smoke weed myself so I understand why he might use some of those lighter forms of drugs. The difference being is I smoke maybe like twice a week versus he takes drugs daily and in heavy amounts.
Now he just told me he cried for 10 minutes straight because drugs fucked him up, yelled at his parents, "fucked shit up" (guessing means trashed objects in his room). He also said he wants to buy the worst drugs till he dies. Like cocaine and heroine. I assume he's above meth.
I have no idea if I should call the cops, or what to even say. Any advice would be helpful.
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addiction | Asked a question I didn't want to know the answer to Tonight I asked my addict friend if he is scared to overdose and die. He thought for about thirty seconds and admitted it doesn't scare him.
Just wanted to make this post... he is in recovery, but if he isn't scared of dying... I don't even know... |
addiction | Sugar and the blues . I found this link at r/nootropics , https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/29191750 , it's about depression and anxiety brought on by sucrose withdrawal.
I'm 2 years off booze and am in the process of attacking my 35 year long relationship with nicotine ( almost two weeks ).
Now , about a month ago I stopped sugar and caffeine ( I was a two sugars in coffee guy - several times a day .)
My thrust is that I had intuited ( remembered reading ... ) about the effects on mood that sugar buzzes and downers had .
so , before the attack on the cigarette addiction I binned the sugar .
I think I did notice a bit more calmness ...
I have back slid for sure , but just today I cooked some healthy food and didn't go and buy a stack of 'cheer up ' confection .
Most of you are probably well onto this , or may disagree , but I just wanted to say that I think sugar is a really underestimated mood swinging fuel.
It seems to me that people can 'forget' about a seemingly innocent 'food' , and be banged around by it while they are battling the big bad drugs .
Addiction is a demon .
Good luck folks !
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addiction | How to help someone who doesn't think they have a problem? I have a loved one who has been taking pills off and on for 20 years. She doesn't think she has a problem and she keeps getting high. She doctor shops and swears she doesn't need help? I can't just leave her. Does anyone have any advice? |
addiction | Tweet to help save a free rehab center doing amazing work from being shut down. Hey redditors,
Could really use your social media influence. I'm an attorney defending a loose network of unlicensed rehab centers that treat homeless, uninsured, and anyone else who wants to come for alcohol and drug addiction. The 90-day program with food and shelter is completely free - no insurance, no government grants, nothing. It's all paid for by graduates who want to help the next person turn their life around.
The State of California shut them down 6 months ago and is now suing them because they're not licensed. But they can't get licensed because the law was designed to force a very lucrative business to spend lots of money on fees and other expenses, to make sure people weren't just lining their pockets. Obviously, these donors aren't making money off their rehab centers, and can't afford the same types of expenditures as for-profit places.
Help us by tweeting #SaveCorriente at @DHCSDirector, who runs the Department of Health Care Services (the ones bringing the lawsuit and also the ones who decide if my clients can get a license).
You can also watch this cool video that tells a little more about the problem:
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TO BE CLEAR - these centers are currently inactive and do not operate. They cannot accept anyone unless they get their license. This post is asking for your help to save them. |
addiction | Any workaholics here? I have strong workaholic tendencies. So I've been looking into workaholism, and it seems that actual workaholics must be indeed too busy drinking workahol to be visible and talking on the internet.
So, anyone here? if any of them are here, I'd love to hear about how it started for you, how you're dealing with it, if work is the only addiction you have, and so on.
I've been also wondering if there are actual personality traits or commorbid conditions that workaholics particularly share among themselves more than people with other primary addictions. Apparently workaholics are more likely to have ADHD, OCD, anxiety, depression according to a research. It's funny because I do have ADHD and mild OCD tendencies. |
addiction | Cigarettes!!! Dying for one! 20 hours, I’m obsessed, just want 1, just one. Will take a shower and keep busy, praying this passes. |
addiction | I want to quit but I LOVE it too much or does it LOVE me too much? Basically I have addiction issues, I quit one but start another. I didn't have depression until I started, well I had anxiety issues which I don't have anymore because being high 24/7 means I don't care for anxiety (apart from when i quit benzos and the rebound anxiety).
Anyway my point is how do I control an addiction problem? If I quit all the drugs is it possible to become addicted to something that increases my pleasure levels so much as drugs but are natural highs? My pleasure levels from doing this I used to enjoy are dropping.
I'm a poly drug addict and im currently high and I feel amazing but i want to quit.
Any guidance from ex addicts will be appreciated.
tl;dr I can admit I have addiction problems and I can do the first step of admitting but the rest is harder...
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addiction | Tackling everything at once I am tackling some life-long addictions. I'm going to be replacing a lot of bad habits with positive ones. I'm 35 years old. I am going to quit smoking cigarettes, drinking, gambling, junk food. And replacing it with mindfulness and healthy eating. I'm also planning on adapting a more positive outlook and personality.
I know it's going to be hard and I know it's a lot to do all at once, but I want to rewire my brain. I'm tired of being who I am and reliant on substances. I want to be somebody better.
Has anyone ever done this - what tips do you have?
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addiction | Brother is a veteran, addict; just relapsed Hi all, I'm new to this sub, so please be nice. My brother is an alcoholic and a veteran. He was recently discharged due to his drinking and went through and extensive rehabilitation, to which he responded very well. He stayed sober for four months, but after the reality of being kicked out of the military set in, and he realized he was living in Texas with no one around who really truly cared for him, he took a downturn which is more intense than anything I've ever seen him go through.
His main vice used to be drinking, but since he has access to so much more, he has been on a four-day alcohol and Vicodin bender and has barely eaten or slept. He confided in me that he considered suicide and almost went through with it a couple of times over the last few days and I have no idea what to do. He is in Del Rio, TX and I'm in Chicago. I wish I was closer. He's planning to move back to this region (where we're from) within the next week, but I just wish I could keep an eye on him for the next couple of days while he tries to get clean again. He doesn't have health insurance and can't afford to go to the ER for help. I'm trying to find him some veterans resources in his area but it's hard, the area is so small...
If anyone has any input or words of wisdom, I'd like to hear them from an addict. I have addictive tendencies but I've never experienced something as intense as he has. Thanks for your time |
addiction | I’m pregnant, my boyfriend has a drug problem, he’s been a complete d*ck to me.. what am I to do? I’ve been with a guy who has a pretty big drug problem. He loves pills and almost anything to get him high. I noticed recently how big of a problem this is for him. I’m actually pregnant with his baby. He’s been really distant and I have a feeling drugs are playing a big part in his horrid actions towards me. I’ve been reading about addicts recently and realized I might be an “enabler” which only makes things worse.,. I probably am an enabler because the whole year this has been going on and I pretty much never really left. What can I do? If there’s anything I can do? I stopped talking to him past two days because he’s been so mean to me that I couldn’t take the stress. I need to be healthy at this time for the baby. He only texts to ask about doctor appointments and only cares about the baby since he supposedly is very serious about being there for the baby. It drives me crazy because I miss him so much and I thought we loved each other but this whole pregnancy he’s been acting like he completely hates me and he isn’t interested in me at all. I’m 10 weeks. |
addiction | Trying to stop using Zopiclone to sleep.. But im loosing the battle. Help! I always had sleeping troubles, but alot of shit happend in my life the past year. So for the past 3 months i've barley slept, I tried CBT with a shrink, mindfullness exercises 20 mins a day, tons of diffrent medications. Im daily on 2mg melatonin and 15mg mirtazapin. Still cant fall back asleep after I wake up.
So to survive the holidays I've taken 7.5 - 10mg Zopiclone to fall asleep and then another 7-10mg when i wake up 4 hours later so i can go back to sleep. This usually made me sleep decent each night, 1-3 times I've also taken a 7.5mg to take a nap during the day during this period.
Now after new years I wanted to quit. I dont wanna become addicted to them. I dident sleep for 3 days straight, I took a huge dose of Theralen to sleep on the fourth night.. got afew hours of sleep. Now last night I yet again dident sleep at all.. 7 in the morning i took 3.5mg zopiclone and still dident sleep.
Now I dont know what to do. Tommorow im supposed to go back to work and on tuesday my long distance GF is supposed to come visit me.
Questions:
- Did i fuck up my cold turkey by taking that 3.5mg last night? Are my other 3-4 days clean wasted?
- What should i DO? Should I hop back on the pills? I only have 5-6 of them left anyway so they will soon run out.
- Should I stick it out? I dont know how much longer I can go without sleep...
help me please |
addiction | 18, addicted to pills Instead of killing myself one night, I decided to buy some Xanax, the moment I swallowed those 2 bars, I felt a click. I've been taking Oxy, Hydrocodone, Xanax, Ativan, anything I can get my hands on. If I go without taking them, I get this rush of anxiety.
I don't know where to start. I just don't know what to do. I know it's killing me, but I just don't know what to do.
I'm scared of going to someone, everyone knows I'm battling depression, and that I'm bipolar. I don't want people to think I'm even more fucked up.
I feel like, maybe it would be easier to take everything I have and just go to sleep.
Where do I start? |
addiction | Binge drinking I binge drink almost every night and regrettably wake up at like 1pm with nauseous and anxiety. I know that this is unhealthy and that it needs to stop. But I've been sober for months at a time and feel great between those breaks. Will even control myself after 2 drinks, but when i get in this funk... it seems like boredom and the loss of my mom at the age of 24 is a major factor for me drinking. A pint of run and 4 beers a night. I know i really don't need it but its starting to affect my physical and mental health. Help. |
addiction | Need suggestions/opinions/help I’m 2 & a half years clean & just found out I need my wisdom teeth removed. The anesthetic & painkillers feel like a relapse to me & I don’t know how to proceed since I need them removed one way or another. Any suggestions/opinions would really help |
addiction | Feeling like wife’s family wants me to relapse When I was newly recovered, I started seeing my wife. I told her flat out in the middle of our first date I am an addict.
She kept coming back, helped me stay clean, an we got married two years later. We have a beautiful seven year old daughter and five year old son.
My mother in law never liked me and was always talking about my addiction, saying things in front of family members I didn’t know. Now, she says stuff to nieces and nephews in of the kids!!! My nephew told me... now I feel sick because I’d never do anything to jeopardize my family. I love my wife and babies. I’d never want to hurt them.
What does a guy do? I realize my babies aren’t old enough to get what’s going on, but I worry about the future. I’m not like some crazy Charlie Sheen character waiting to break out... I’m a daddy. |
addiction | On my own Im a 23 year old male, this is my first post on Reddit as I need proper insight and thoughts on !y situation, even help.
Last august I was put on tramadol for a back injury, starting at 50MG SR 2x a day. When I used to get my box of 60, I always traded them for a good bag of green as I had never took a pill in my life, not even so much as paracetamol. I don't drink or smoke cigarettes.
Then, I started to try them out, they where great for my back pain, 100mg also gave me a great feeling of well being, warmth, comfort and I was living life and so calm, they completely took my depression away.
Now, in 2018 I am addicted to them, just at around Christmas time as I started smoking green again, I noticed I stopped getting that 'feeling' from them and they are not helping my back as much, I even took as much as 800MG at once and felt nothing apart from a nod.
I don't know what to do as my family think I'm clean so I can't tell them, I am stuck in this endless cycle of now having to take X2 200MG SR pills to feel normal.
As they are the only thing that help my back with the next step being oxynorm (UK oxycodone) which in fairness people have told me the WDs are no where near as bad as tramadol, H addicts have also told me tramadol wds are hell.
I have been able to lower my dose before down to 50MG a day or 50MG anytime I felt the WDs were kicking in. I can't even work because I'm afraid what if one day I run out of trams and can't go to work because the WDs completley incapacitate me (this has happened before where I lost my job)
I just constantly feel this shear feeling of panic, like something bass going to happen, sweating, burning skin, unable to sit still or calm down it's just full blown panic mode it's insane, and I'm stuck between a rock and a hard solace because I don't know what to do, I honestly just want to disappear (not kill myself) but just go to sleep and vanish from the earth to escape my problems + WD.
I didn't take none on Saturday + Sunday but had to take 2 today as the feeling of panic and pain started coming, this is the problem I have to fucking take atleast 400 to feel normal. |
addiction | [Survey] What age were you when you started using and what age were you when you became addicted? Need for school, thanks |
addiction | Addicted to feeling addicted Sorry for all the mistakes in my text if there are any,i'm not a native english speaker.
First of all,i'm 22 ,a uni student at medicine and a royal class fuck up and perfectionist who's also lazy and sometimes dissasociates with everything around him and numbs himself in addictions.
Which addiction may you ask?
1.Gambling degenerate (since 12 years old)
Oh,there's been some really tough times ,like having money for the week (45$) and in 2-3 hours ,left with only close to 9$ for all my living expenses,full of excuses and bullshit i always got through,full of debts and crying myself at night .I have lots of stories and i will post them as time goes by,for therapy.
2.Smoking (since 17 years old)
The ideea of smoking never appealed to me until i saw one of my relatives,who's the nicest,smartest girl i know take a drag out of a cigarette.I thought *pff,if SHE does that ,then there's nothing wrong with me trying this stuff out*.Fast forward to me battling this addiction over the years,hating myself for it and searching for that dopamine spike again and again.
3.PMO
This is something that always dragged me behind.Staying and losing all my energy to feel lethargic,going on on days on end,week after week,month afther month not accomplishing what i wanted to do.Also my mind dwelved into some pretty dark corners with some fetishes but i'm keeping them at bay trying to become sentisized again.
4.Food
Back in HS i used to go to the gym ,take care of my self,and feel like a million bucks.Now i'm close to 200 pounds at 6 feet 1,it's not that bad but i don't feel good ,i am overweight and not pleased with myself.
5.Internet and games
Anything that can numb me and make me not to think ,i craved it.Didn't have a great childhood ,dad missed alot of it and when he was part of it,it wasn't nice.I guess i keep trying to fill that void by doing all this stupid shit.
I'm not looking for sympathy by writing this ,i'm not that misfortunate and i know it but what cuts deeper than losing a friend ,a loved one telling you they don't love you anymore or the absence of a parent ,is the fact that you know you can be great and have all the right tools at hand,but you don't care.That's WASTED POTENTIAL.
So,i will keep a tiny journal here,trying to undestand better what addiction is and how i can stop being a slave to dopamine.All these quick fixes that we all crave.All this need to numb ourselves because of the harsh truth of our reality.All the hiding from problems.
I wish you can all learn something from me and i can learn something from you.
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addiction | (Academic) Substance Abuse And The Effect It Has On Child Development This survey pertains to anyone who has been raised in a household with addiction. Please fill out the questions below to the best of your abilities. All answers remain confidential. Thank you.
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addiction | Can Ativan cause a positive for methamphetamines on a urine drug test? Hey guys, I’m pretty bummed. My brother is a recovering meth addict and he has some mental health issues. New Year’s Eve he had a bad episode and we took him to the behavioral hospital. Before then he took an Ativan to try and calm down. The hospital gave him a urine test and it came back positive for meth. Could the Ativan cause this? I wanna believe him when he says he hasn’t done anything but being a recovering addict, I feel like it’s an obvious relapse. Any help would be appreciated. |
addiction | Morning fix. Woke up, my heart instantly sank about 2 feet when I realized it was Monday morning. Then I had to dive for the bathroom when I realized I was about to crap my guts out. With that out of the way, I have a moment to reflect on my immediate situation.
I’ve been drunk and high on my drugs of choice for about 3 days and I’m feeling utterly terrible this morning. There’s a couple of big meetings today at work that I’ve no idea how I am going to get through. I’ve called in sick a couple of days last week, so that’s out of the question for the foreseeable future.
I hate doing this, but I may need to do a few lines of drugs before the commute in to the office just to straighten myself out. Doing drugs in the morning is one of the many red lines I promised myself I would never cross, yet here I am again.
This is really not what I thought I would be doing as a supposed ‘professional’ in my 30’s. Oh well, at least it’s only -8 this morning.
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addiction | Vyvanse abuse I think I might be addicted/abusing my vyvanse prescription. At first I started using it for my add and adhd but now I think it might be fueling my eating disorder. I upped the prescription yesterday because I think I can do better in school but I know in the back of my mind I did it so I can eat even less than I do now. I used to be a fit swimmer and now I can’t even do a lap without getting tired. Nobody even notices I went from 155 pounds to 135. My goal was 135 and even though I’m there I’m still not satisfied. I don’t know what to do. The rational part of me know I need to stop but I can’t. |
addiction | A trap Every time I go to a grocery store or pass a liquor store it crosses my mind, and 60% of the time I give in. I feel like some of us are targeted by the industry and THEY win! Cause I'm always going for the 2 dollar 40oz, $6 vodka, $9 whiskey, and $15 case of beer. They make it so readily available and cheap its like a no brainer for me.
Almost thought of an excuse to drink today, but I will not let them win!
Cheers to not drinking tonight |
addiction | intoxicated. drunk. on the numbness. to me it felt good. sip after sip I'd go away a little more. I blamed all my mistakes on the alcohol. I didn't care. the more I drank the more I wasn't myself. never did I consider it a drug. but I knew it was. along with the numbness I wanted more. drugs I would say no to I would say yes too the more numb I became. why was I on this earth. I was going to do it. I was going to go away for good. until I was saved. a miracle I would say. i became addicted to someone. it was in a good way though. it still is. I still crave the numbness. but hopefully one day I won't need the numbness again. - just let me go |
addiction | Addicted to video games, can someone give some tips on how to stop? To make this post short as possible, I have been playing video games since I was 5 years old (I'm 21) but I am addicted to playing video games. Every time I get home from school, I sit in front of my PS4 to play that I forget to make homework and to read up for the upcoming exam. I gained quite a weight and every time I told myself this is the day where I will quit, it never happened.
I want to focus on my future in terms of dream job etc, but every day when I get the opportunity to start work on the path, I sit down and play instead. (To animate.) I can't get my mind off video games and is almost obsessed with it.
I can't seem to stop, does any of you have tips on how to stop?
I will appreciate it.
Sorry my grammar, take care. |
addiction | Sleep deprivation So it's come to my mind that atleast once a week I'll make myself stay awake for over 24 hours cause I genuinely enjoy the feeling of the halucegenic mind state. I'll go to work like this.
I'm just curious if there's a word for what I do and do I have a problem? |
addiction | Oxy addict at 19 years old I’m so scared that I’ll never get off these stupid pills. I’ve been doing oxy since this exact day last year. My boyfriend passed away due to excessive drinking and his heart couldn’t take it. Ever since he passed, my drug use has gotten out of control. I just need it. I need the escape. Even if it’s just for a few hours. I need to forget what it looked and felt like to find him dead in our bed. In my safe place.. he was my best friend. My biggest supporter and role model. He had his addictions but he was such an amazing person. His demons ended up destroying his life and I tried so hard to help him. And now I’m slowly killing myself. I’m too much of a coward to kill myself so this is the closest thing.. I know it’s wrong but I just feel this way. Please if anyone has advice I’d appreciate it. I don’t want my family to find me dead in my bed like how I found my boyfriend. |
addiction | Fourth day sober off of all drugs and alcohol, I started a program at AA and I couldn’t feel better I can’t wait til I reach 30 days. I haven’t been sober for 30 days in 3 Years. My life has always been controlled by constant drug abuse and drinking. On my last day of using, I threw out the rest of the weed I had along with my lighters and swishers and I couldn’t feel happier. |
addiction | I have been diagnosed as a polydrug substance abuser. Don't want to stop still... Was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. Learned my birth father was an alcoholic and heroin/meth addict recently. I think I need to change my ways of abusing alcohol, speed and cannabis, but don't want to. Any advice? |
addiction | Do you think I need to go to rehab? (Long post) So I use meth. I guess you could call it an addiction, but not a life long addiction (more like almost 2 years). I use meth to make the pain go away...like all the painful thoughts, memories, self-hatred/severe self-criticism, codependency (well I guess I'm codependent while in either high or not), suicidal ideation, anxiety, and painfully shy personality. I also I guess like the way I look now that I am skinny. I was 140lbs in high school, then dropped to 120 lbs after mom died, now I am 106 lbs (5'6). My self esteem is and has always been pretty terrible. I find myself basing my self worth from being wanted physically by men...which isn't good, I know that...
I flunked my last semester of college because I couldn't leave the apartment most days (It's too hard, feel mostly like what's the point?) So to counteract these thoughts I smoke more but now went back to snorting. The school and my family aren't aware that I use cause I don't go full tweaker so I am able to hide it but the school was understanding of this semester bc of the depression and stuff since my GPA proves I'm not a lazy student or a bad student...just struggling...
Though I am moving back home which is in a different state (Nv to Ca) and I am sad, scared, sick with fear and self hatred. I broke up with my ex so I'm moving back single (1st time in single in almost 3 years... and lonliness is scary bc I havent been single-single since mom died 4+years ago...I guess I'm a relationship hopper but my recent ex, I love him still...it hurts a lot moving without him but my issues were dragging him down too and I couldnt do that to him anymore). I'm afraid of moving back bc I want to get sober but I don't know if I trust myself to not look for someone who sells to buy from and fall into the lifestyle again...I'm really scared of that since I fall for broken people...because I feel more understood from them.
I've asked some people in my life what their opinions were. One said I need rehab but doesn't factor in money, my therapist didn't really give me an answer saying its up for me to decide but rehabs accept people who they think need a spot the most, my ex said I didn't and to just shut myself up in my room for a few days bc he said if I did go to rehab I'd be universally hated since I don't have a life long addiction. Then the same people also had the same varying opinions on if I should tell my dad about my use too so I'm left even more confused. I'm very much a person that doesn't want to make the wrong choice and I know I fuck things up for myself sometimes too bc I'm afraid of making the wrong choice or I don't feel worthy of the choices I have. So yeah...idk...I'm just confused and scared. I want to get better all around but don't know how to do it. |
addiction | Pornography takes up too much of my time. I need to break it before it too late. I’m coming off a broke ankle, I am still a little depressed and I work part time with varying days. I have a decent amount of time on my hands and it’s time to put it to good use.
I was doing well before I got hurt, but I need to do even better I turn 24 this year and I want to find my career and work hard towards it.
How can I break this addiction and go on with my life? |
addiction | Looking for Some Real Valentine's Day Stories or Perspective Hi Addiction,
My name is Ryan and I work as a blogger for a number of addiction recovery centers in South Florida. I am writing a few posts about Valentine's Day after recovery and stories of joining the dating scene after recovery.
I want to use real stories because at the end of the day, advice from a non recovering addict is not nearly as meaningful or accurate as a story from someone who has been there.
If anyone is willing to share and help I would love to write a piece and feature a few stories.
I will keep everything anonymous if that is preferred or use a first name and initial. I can also link to your reddit username if you like, you just let me know. Please feel free to answer here or PM me.
Also feel free to pick and choose which questions you answer.
1 - What was your first Valentine's Day like after recovery?
2 - Did you end any relationships after recovery or did your SO get into recovery too?
3 - What is your biggest challenge in the dating scene now that you're in recovery?
4 - What advice would you give addicts or the newly recovered to help them have more meaningful relationship or Valentine's Day?
Thank you to anyone who is willing to share. |
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addiction | Anyone With Dual Diagnosis Really Struggling? Like Bad? I've been to several inpatient places and the last place figured out I need to focus on my mental health (really severe, lifelong depression and Depersonalization Disorder) as opposed to substance abuse because my mental health is what is causing or at least driving my addiction. I feel like I could do without drugs to some degree, the issue is that I just feel like plain shit .. day in and day out. It never gets better and I've had serious suicidal depression since I was 7 years old and am now 21 (3 weeks I'll be 22) and once I found drugs, it was a game changer in my life. After experimenting with so many different substances I can't count on 4 hands the different ones I've done, my favorite .. are dissociatives. Why? Ever heard about Ketamine being studied for depression. That's why. Well, DXM is very similar to Ketamine except it has much more potent action on serotonin and has a much longer half life and is fucking over the counter. Second favorite being Nitrous Oxide and Air Duster but I can easily do without those. Those are just wonky drugs when I'm looking to get weird. But the DXM or Ketamine? It is so fucking hard to stay away and that drug has given me this feeling I've never had before that feels more than just a drug. It feels like a state of being that is attainable without drugs, but all the shit I got going on in my mind, I don't feel like I can attain it without DXM. It completely rids me of depression, anxiety, Depersonalization, etc for DAYS after doing it. It literally fixed my issues and no other drug on the planet has given me this feeling of being truly alive. Not coke. Not heroin. Not adderall. Not shrooms. Not LSD. Not molly. Those are all fun, but DXM wasn't just a hallucinogen. It was legit medicine. It literally fixed my depression as long as I kept doing it. It didn't have to be everyday. Every other day or every 3 days. Kept the dosages below full blown trips. Just to get that magical, ALIVE feeling. When I got back into it again a few months ago, I was like "holy shit, I'm back." I felt in the moment. Happy. Content. Present. Alive. Welp, been bouncing around rehabs for several months and now I'm finally out but god damn is it hard... I'm back on SSRI's but I just feel like they can't suffice. I've been on max dosages before of other meds and while they kinda helped, it didn't compare to DXM. I feel unable to feel fully connected to myself and benefit from therapy either without DXM. It makes me so in tune with my thoughts and feelings and feel safe to articulate it to others. The way it makes me feel, I'm perfectly fine taking it forever even if it fucking kills me down the road. I've been without it for several months now and I'm almost debating using it again even though it's dangerous to combine it with SSRI's. I just feel like I'm time traveling until the next time I do DXM where I get that "woah I'm back" feeling.
Anyone relate? |
addiction | Alcohol, Rehab in Hawaii? Someone very close to me is an alcoholic - it is destroying their relationship and affecting our family, as it has gotten progressively worse over the years. We have tried AA, counseling, they have begged to be taken in to limit their ability to access the problem, yet we have not found a permanent solution. We are not in the position to spend an extreme amount for rehab, but we need to help them. If you can recommend an affordable rehab in Hawaii, it would be much appreciated. Oahu is preferred, but I am willing to do anything to convince them to get help that we can afford, in their area or not. Thank you. |
addiction | Any tips on helping my sometimes boyfriend beat his heroin addiction? I have been on and off with a man for the last four years. He has been a heroin user since we were introduced. He’s really good at hiding it too.
A few days ago, he overdosed on heroin. I got a call today asking if I wanted to see him. I did, because I’m so in love with him. when I got there his mom was there. We have met a few times and I know this is really hard on her. He’s her baby.
He got her to leave, and I could tell she was nervous to go, but I promised to stay until she got back. He was saying he thought he was going to die without getting a chance to say he has feelings for me. He’s also going to rehab. He’s going to check in Monday.
His mom came back, and I left. She stopped me on the way out and thanked me for coming and told me I mean the world to him. I was happy to hear that because he’s so important to me.
Aside from his addiction, he’s smart, motivated, sweet person, and if you didn’t know he was addicted, you’d never be able to tell. We haven’t been seeing each other as much because he’s been using and I am very anti-drugs and don’t drink much. He’s had a really rough year, and I wonder if the overdose was intentional. He’s very good at hiding things, isolating himself, and pretending he’s okay...
I know the prospects of him being able to get through rehab the first time are slim. I know that heroin is evil, I know he needs to really want to be clean for this to work. However, I want to help. Even if we can’t be together. I want to help his mom at least, if she’ll let me. What can I do? What should I be aware of? What does this recovery look like?
I’ve had so many people tell me he won’t get better, but I know it’s possible. I just want to help him and keep him alive. |
addiction | Would my personal drug addiction data be of value to anyone? I don't want anyone to misunderstand what I am saying, so let me first clarify by saying I am NOT trying to find someone to buy my data. I am wondering if in any way this would be valuable information for anyone doing research. I have been clean from my addiction for over 2 years now, but I recently remembered the data that I have.
I was addicted to adderall for a few years and during the last year of it I became very obsessive with keeping lists of things. For an entire year I have a record of every pill I took broken down by date and time. Along with that I also have Fitbit data. So I have my sleep logs, 24/7 heart rate tracking, steps taken, etc. I was also in grad school at the time so I have my academic records as well. Any thoughts? |
addiction | Looking for people who've done home detox UK Hello! I am in recovery from drugs and alcohol and work as a freelance addiction and mental health reporter for the BBC. I am looking for people who have done private home detoxes in the UK in the past few years and anyone who has experience of Castleway Health for my latest piece for Radio 4. Please email me on [email protected] |
addiction | Do i have a drug problem? So its currently 2am on a friday morning and im pretty buzzed off of a little over 7 beers, i have about 500mgs of mdma and im really tempted to take some, probably will. I did about 300mgs last night and had a fuckin awesome time, (first time doing m in about 8 months tho) im temporarily laid off my job for a few more weeks and have nothing but free time and a decent amount of money that i find myself mostly spending on drugs (weed, booze, lsd, shrooms, mdma... All of which ive done several times in the last month) i always have a good time when i do these substances but i feel like i might have a problem with self control. I go to the gym atleast 3 times a week but always find myself staying up super late getting as fucked up as i can. Like if i have alcohol i will drink as much as i can everynight until its gone, i smoke weed everyday and also smoke a pack of cigs every 2-3 days, and if one of my dealers happens to be selling m, acid or shrooms ill buy some without hesitation and do them the same night. Idk. I just felt like i needed to vent somewhere, do i have a problem? Or am i going to have one soon? Thanks. |
addiction | Marijuana I know this may not sound like a big deal, but it is for me; I’m a teen and have been smoking marijuana since I was 13-14, it started out slow and controlled but escalated quickly. Now, Most of my life revolves around it. I keep telling myself to only smoke on weekends but always find myself coming home and smoking. I’m worried about my grades and future but I just can’t stop! Is their any advice that helped anyone else overcome marijuana? |
addiction | Codeine addiction. Cold turkey. Hi, New to Reddit and very nervous. I have been addicted to codeine for about six years, I'm sick of it. I want to stop but I'm very scared of withdrawl. Ive stopped before with a taper method, withdrawl wasn't too bad considering I did it slowly but the restless legs drove me nuts and I relapsed. Its been one year since then and I want to do cold turkey. I know I'm in for a hell of a time. I take 15mg codeine about twenty tablets a day. Occasionally more. I had the last of my tablets at 10pm last night, I feel ok for now a little bit sick and an upset stomach with very mild body aches. I'm waiting for the restless legs to kick in. Does anybody have any advice? How long will withdrawl last or at least the worst of it. Thank you for reading and I am really hoping I can do it this time and stay off it. I have a supposedly non addictive muscle relaxant called norgesic. I plan on taking that with regualr panadol and magnesium. I really don't want to do the Valium route. I have weed available, I only smoke it socially but I figure if it helps I'll smoke it. Please if anybody has any advice I would really appreciate it. I am a 26 year old female. |
addiction | 1 year 8 months clean and I’ve got an issue I just started school again and I’m noticing during class I have extreme amounts of anxiety in class.
I also have problems taking in discussions in class and general studying at home.
I literally have to re read things over and over until they make sense in my head. I also have to review everything from class that we discussed.
Is this normal? Is my brain still recovering/healing? Advice for that stupid anxiety?
( drug of choice was cocaine/crack, alcohol and morphine ) |
addiction | Need Some Motivation to Quit - Adderall I've been abusing adderall since the fall of 2013. Started out around 20mg and now I'm up to 70-120mg per day. There's only been a couple days since I've started that I haven't taken any at all and those days, I was miserable and couldn't even keep my eyes open. I don't even really WANT to quit, of course. But I know that I need to sometime in the near future at least. My memory is starting to get really bad, it used to be perfect but now looking back on the past few years, and even just day to day, everything seems like a blur. I have at least a couple panic attacks every week now in which I feel like I'm dying. I ended up in the hospital the first time because I thought I was having a heart attack; arms went so numb that I couldn't even grasp anything with my hands, couldn't think straight, really dizzy, chest pain, cold sweats, feelings of intense fear/anxiety, forgot how to talk, shortness of breath, extremely fast heart rate, lips and hands were turning purple/blue. Now that I think back on that, it kind of seems like I had a mini stroke or something - not really sure? I went to the ER though and they did a bunch of tests for my heart/chest, told me I was just having a panic attack. They kept me there for another hour or two though because they said my heart rate was so fast they didn't want me to leave yet. That was a year or 2 ago and now I'm getting panic attacks like that quite often. It sucks. My depression is also worse than ever whenever I'm coming down. And my social anxiety is almost unmanagable. When I started taking adderall, I loved it because of the fact that it took away my shyness and I always loved talking to everyone and going out & doing things with my friends. But now, even when I'm high, I just want to sit by myself and play games on my phone, watch movies, etc. I'm terrified to quit though because I have a toddler, I have a job that I can't afford to lose, I'm trying to get my life together and I know quitting should be the first step in that but I feel like if I quit, my life is going to be so hard to get back together considering I will be a useless mess that will only be able to sleep and do nothing else. I don't even know where to begin. I don't feel like I'm ever going to be able to stop.
Also, I forgot to mention, I'm 5'0" and I was like 115 lbs. before I started, I'm now at 85 and can't seem to gain any weight no matter how much I eat. |
addiction | I've relapsed. I have a tale to tell but here is not the place.
I'm here to seek advice for one particular question that I'm struggling with.
I could write a book detailing my journey but I will spare you such an essay. The basic details are this:
Regular tobacco smoker by aged 15.
Also started drinking vodka aged 15.
Started smoking cannabis aged 16.
Over the next few years this developed into other substance abuses including MDMA, Ketamine, Mkat, Shrooms, Pills, and an assortment of legal 'research drugs' .
Naturally this addiction also created problems with family and authority including arrests, community service, curfews etc.
This lifestyle built up to the point of combustion. At the age of 17 I lost all my friends and I pushed away my family burning nearly all my bridges. I got arrested for the last time on a friday and was collected from the court by my grandparents on the Monday.
This was my rehab.
No friends to tempt me back to my old ways. No contacts for drug dealers. This was when my life should have changed for the better.
My relapse was gradual.
I had been ordered to do community service.
This gave me access to drug dealers.
At first it was just cannabis so I thought nothing of my decision.
I moved on with my life got a job, got my own place started paying rent. Life was good. Life was stable.
At this point I'm still smoking weed but I don't touch anything else. I reconnect with family. Water under the bridge, all is forgiven.
Then on a night out I get offered cocaine and like the idiot I am I take it.
At first it was manageable. Only taking it on events like birthdays, new years and so on.
But then it became monthly. Then every weekend.
Now I sit here aged 22.
I'm not seeking advice about my addiction. I know what I must do. I know who to speak to what steps to take etc. I am ready to quit.
I just need help to an emotionally painful question.
How do I tell my family I have relapsed?
They are so proud of the progress I made. How do I tell them I fucked up again. I can't bare to let them down. I've brought enough pain to them. But I can't quit my addiction without their support.
I need their support but I can't shake this feeling that I am a burden, a let down, A disappointment...
Thank you for your time. |
addiction | How do I help my girlfriend understand? I'm a recovering addict with ten days sobriety today. My girlfriend is not an addict, and has never done any drugs, nor is she friends with anyone who does. She tries to be supportive in my recovery - she says she's especially proud that I came to the realization I needed to get clean on my own. She never tried to steer me toward recovery because, for the length of our relationship, I haven't had addiction control my life the way it used to. However, I was still drinking, still smoking pot, etc. But I am much stronger than I used to be, so I decided it's time to get sober and stay that way.
The thing is, after telling her how my addiction affected my life and described some of my worst moments from my past, I can sense her fear growing. She wants to understand, but she just doesn't - not really. I mentioned possibly going to NA meetings, but I am nervous since I have never been to one so I am admittedly dragging my feet. I did though, set up a few appointments with my therapist who is licensed to counsel for addiction.
Here's how she seems to be ignorant about addiction: I decided a few months ago to quit smoking cigarettes. Since becoming sober, nicotine gum is just not cutting it all the time and I have had the occasional cig. Not being a smoker or an addict, she's conflicted. She even said, "You're smoking again. You are **not** sober." That's incredibly frustrating because it's a ridiculous statement and I'm proud of my ten days. She doesn't get that nicotine is not a mood-altering substance people use to get high - she just sees that I didn't kick the addiction and worries that will carry over to drugs and alcohol. She's also worried because I still haven't gone to an NA meeting, which is my fault for dragging my feet. But I worry that if I decide NA is not for me then she will fear my sobriety is in jeopardy.
How can I help her understand? How can I explain the difference between a nicotine addiction and being an *addict*? What can I do to let her know that even though it is hard, I am still making progress that I feel good about? I know she wants to be supportive but I see it causing her stress because she is always worrying about me. |
addiction | I have a problem where i feel like im withdrawing but been sober for a long time. 7months I was on kratom amd heroine for lile 5 years.... Im clean now and smoke green drink sometimes not alot, and smoke cigarettes. I have only at nights get the bone hurt... You know lol. I havent abused any of the drugs im on now alcohol or weed cigs to withdraw.... Also havent stopped. Side note i was also on xanax to get off heroine kratom and got addicted grom usibg a shit load in 2 weeks. I kicked that habbit afterwards.....why do i still feel lile this. Its not every night but alot when i can sit and relax. Its not bad but annoying now. Can anyone relate... What is this lol. Thank you! |
addiction | Concerns Regarding a Drug/Alcohol Rehab Hell everyone. I am new to this sub and still fairly new to reddit altogether but when I found this sub I really wanted to discuss an issue I'm having great difficulty with. Some short background: I'm a nurse and also hold a B.S. in Biology/Chemistry and a M.S. in Rehabilitative Sciences. This info is not intended to make myself sound all-knowing or intended to brag in any way. It is just background that is influencing my views. There is a drug and alcohol rehab here that has a long history and works with the legal system in their own county and surrounding counties. They call parole and probation officers to force clients into any recommended treatment if the client happens to be in legal trouble. There are some clients there who chose to go voluntarily and there is a very low rate of completion for people who seek the service of their own free will. The facility is so used to bullying and forcing their clients into a set treatment plan that they really have no idea how to handle clients they do not possess such leverage over. I feel that reporting to POs as a method of forcing compliance, and of course if someone fails a drug test, is violating HIPAA and unacceptable behavior from health care providers. I had experience with patients on parole or probation at times. Their POs are not interested in the well-being of their charges in most cases. The place I had the most trouble with them was a skilled nursing facility treating people who had been in accidents. I fought to keep POs away fro them because I was there to care for my patients, not play snitch for the legal system. The counselors at this rehab will not acknowledge that their policy is a problem and clients can not actually get the benefits they should because they can't trust their counselors. Phone calls to POs are not just for dirty drug screens or not attending. They also call if the client is doing something they dont approve of or if they feel the client is not in a good situation at home. They fight and bully until clients finally agree to do what the counselor says and this often results in misery, hatred and mistrust of the people they are supposed to be able to rely on for help, and relapse. A relapse is nearly guaranteed when a person in early recovery is trapped in a situation causing them to be upset, angry, depressed, and hopeless. I just do not understand how people trained in the field and working in such a specialty do not comprehend how detrimental their policies of usings the legal system to bully is to their client's success in treatment. They claim it is 'voluntary' and their clients always 'have a choice' and this is true, to a point. Clients must sign a consent form. The other part of that equation is if they do not sign it the counselor immediately informs the person's PO and then the PO threatens to revoke if the consent isn't signed. There is also a great deal of coercion in other aspects of life. "Recovery first" is used to justify some really awful actions. Clients are told they have to leave their children in the care of relatives in order to devote all of their time to attending counseling and services. People concerned for pets are told the same. Finances, losing their homes, sick relatives, and so on are all dismissed as being of concern and the mantra of 'recovery first' is repeated. I truly can not stand this place. They aren't helping anyone. The facility is making a lot of money and they also own a share in some housing units associated with the facility. Clients are 'encouraged' to live in those apartments at 400 per room. Each apartment has 4 bedrooms. I don't know what to do. This isn't right but I have no idea how to fix it. |
addiction | Give me a REASON to not go back to drugs I used to do everything under the sun whenever i had a spare moment, I kept that up for a lomg time but have been sober now for 6 momths. I quit jobs im not in that worse of debt than anyone i know (im 27). I have gone back to school and like the field im trying to get into.
I currently have no friends. No family to talk to. No prospects of dating and from it seems like the dating scene is a nightmare and i dont even know when to start. Dont have any currency on the sexual market at all.
Give me a reason. Give me an exampl of going from nowhere to somewhere. I currently can’t find any meaningful reason to live out a life void of connection with anyone and being practically spit on just for not having money and looking nice. Why should I not just get high and then die? Its a real question and I’d appreciate a real answer. Thanks |
addiction | Addiction to mental state 'improvement'? I wouldn't say I have an addiction to a drug in particular, however the only one I have done more than all others combined is marijuana. I go through stages where I have no access to it (through moving somewhere new and no contacts etc.), and do just fine. I feel myself occasionally wish I had a joint, usually only when doing something that would be improved by it (watching a movie, walking on a beautiful trail) but apart from that I forget about it.
But what stays with me is my compulsion to change my mental state. I drink 6 - 10 cups of coffee a day, because I feel myself 'improving' when I drink it. It gets me in the mood to start some project, fill out my budgets, etc.
I would do the exactly thing with marijuana, when I had it. Smoking would help me become more creative, more interested in things.
Once I was high, I would prepare myself a coffee, to further 'improve' my state. Once I have the coffee in hand, I'd want a few more tokes because it was wearing off a bit in the 20 mins it took to make the coffee. Afterwards, I would need to refill my coffee.
I engage in these spirals of needing to one-up my current mental state 'for the better'. It's a never-ending chase for my 'best self', in terms of mental clarity, thought handling and processing, and creativity.
I have taken speed in the past, and while it was never something I abused, I would say I was dependent on it. I knew that taking too much at once would only make me use it up faster, and I'd only need to take more next time. As such it was only ever used in standard, smaller quantities every day. This was easy to maintain. Even when I had been using it for months at a time, the dosage never increased. I had the product in my possession, within arm's reach, and I barely entertained the thought of taking more than my daily dosage. Since I wasn't going to take any more, I still needed to 'improve' my state further somehow. So of course making coffee will further improve my mental state. Smoking marijuana will increase the effects of the speed. I would sometimes become satisfied with my level, but within minutes I would tell myself that I'm coming down now, that the effects are wearing off. That the 'best' mental state had already happened minutes ago, and I was now experiencing less-than-ideal.
When I don't use these products, I feel that I'm not smart enough, or my thinking abilities could be improved upon. So I do things like drink cranberry juice, or monster energy. Even though I know it is mostly placebo, I still feel my mental abilities improve, even if just by a fraction. And it pleases me.
I have a case of beer that I bought two weeks ago, and I've only drank two since. Alcohol makes me feel less than ideal, the opposite direction I want to go. As such I rarely ever consume it, unless in a social setting.
I had been a cigarette smoker for 6+ years, until I just stopped one day because I noticed it wasn't having any effect. I knew about cigarette's connection to dopamine, which is perhaps one of the reasons I started in the first place. But once I noticed that they weren't "doing" anything to me, quitting was as easy as not buying a new pack.
I'm not sure really what I can do about my situation, because I'm not addicted to any drug *per se*, it has more to do with the fact that I'm not content to stay at my current, base, mental state.
It's like having the choice to either be yourself, or yourself but 25% smarter with an improved thought process? For me that decision is obvious, and it is how I view this situation.
Does anyone have this similar feeling, or know what I can do about it? Is it intrinsically bad?
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addiction | Book Recommendations-Quitting ALL drugs, alcohol, etc. I need to embrace a totally sober lifestyle. Won't go into the reasons. Everybody on here knows all the stories, all the ugliness, all the pain that comes from addiction. I keep switching one for another so I guess I need to stop them all. Any good (secular) book recommendations on wholly embracing a sober life free from all substance abuse, not just geared towards a particular addiction.? |
addiction | Marijuana. I used to do cocaine, shrooms, vicodin and pretty much anything I could get my hands on. However, I dropped all that shit and picked up weed a couple of years back. It's affecting my memory though so earlier last year I dropped it cold turkey. I thought I was ok but then I started doing all the strong stuff again. I get this overwhelming urge to use anything to get high.
The thing is that last week I started smoking weed again and I do not have the urge to do anything else. I'm not sure if that is just a rationalization or if sticking just to weed is a possible route?
When I don't have access to standard drugs i tap into shit like chugging robitussin or inhaling whip cream cans. Im fuckin scared of just spiraling out of control. |
addiction | Netflix original shows sponsored by Tabacco & Alcohol industry Netflix original shows show tremendous amount of smoking / drinking scenes. Does this lead to Priming effect causing people to smoke/drink more in real life ? |
addiction | what do i do after 2.5 years I don't want to have a cigarette but I constantly feel like i want a cigarette. the only way I can stay stopped smoking cigarettes is by constantly distracting myself and moving and having a mint or food in my mouth. if I don't work all I do is sit around and want a cigarette so it's got to the point I am in so much pain from my back from work I am to scared to stop because my cravings for cigarettes will come back. i think it may be a mouth thing , i don't know where to go from here. worked non stop, spent 2 days crying in pain, back to sore then wam cig cravings so bad i could taste it. so tired from constantly fighting cravings. got sick (cancer but okay now) plus my mother died slowly and painfully the course of my treatment with me trying to hide i was sick from her, few months after i gave up but honestly to me giving up the cigarettes was harder than the chemo and radiation am cured, have no money problems , should be happy but ...such stupid 1st world problem. went to a drug counselling it was so bad , found out in the middle had thyroid problem which can be associated with continuing 'withdrawal symptoms' medication for thyroid has helped to an extent but feel the only way i can beat this is work 24/7 and never relax or do anything enjoyable again because i don't enjoy much with out cigarette. stupid i know. alcohol, drugs can take or leave, don't eat meat, never used to touch sugar now have to stop myself shoveling in my mouth. think its hard because of trying not to cross addict plus grumpy as shit all the time because i want cigarette. is so bad that i can not be around people smoking because if i inhale 2nd hand smoke i start craving as badly as when i first stopped. sometimes i feel okay but as soon as i relax it's back. plus have never been so sick since i stopped (cancer totally not smoke related) had every scan mri etc lungs fine but never felt so bad. but have asthma since i gave up go figure...most of my friends say start smoking again stop torturing yourself but having had cancer once don't want to invite cancer into my body again . where do i go from here please? i feel like my body is betraying me by continuing to want cigarettes and yes i have read allen cars book, stopped by vaping/nicotine lozenges, which i no longer use. now not only still want to smoke, also have mint or food in my mouth addiction , have put on weight and feel like shit . where do i go from here please? i didn't post this on the stop smoking sub is because it is mostly newly stopped smokers or happy they have stopped long time non smokers on there and i figure my problem is an addiction thing rather than a cigarette thing plus the only way i can stop this is have something in my mouth thing. i know cigarette smoking can be considered 'only cigarettes' but addiction is addiction whatever you are addicted to and for me this is my addiction. smoked 1-2 packets per day cigarettes for 35 years before i stopped after waking up from an operation on my mouth , was urged to stop as the cigarettes would hurt the healing on my mouth and expensive teeth implants (nothing to do with cancer) and teeth implants might fall out but starting to think mints i suck to stop myself starting again will do as much damage to teeth as cigs. |
addiction | Tom Cruise is not so Crazy After All. Video on Drug Use in the Link Below This video made a lot of people think he was crazy but in retrospect he has some very good points about prescription drug use. Skip to the halfway point: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tFgF1JPNR5E |
addiction | Bromantane in recovery Originally posted in r/REDDITORSINRECOVERY
I need some input here. I’ve been to treatment before for depression and most meds don’t seem to work, at least not fully. I want to try Bromantane, a non-abusable medication approved in Russia with no dependence liability. At this point, I have TMS to try before other methods of treatment become addictive. In the past, the only thing that has worked for my depression was stimulants which I am obviously trying to avoid, as well as two antidepressants I used without a doctor’s prescription, not approved in the USA where I reside. These medications were also non-abusable. My depression has always been the sole thing that leads to relapse so I want to get it under control desperately. If TMS doesn’t work, the next option is probably ketamine which I want to avoid. Bromantane acts similar to a stimulant but lacks any tolerance, dependence, withdrawal, or abuse potential. I am not certain that it will work, I just want to try everything I can before I go to addictive options.
TL;DR: Is it okay to take non-abusable medication for depression that is not prescribed to you because it is not approved in your country if it may help treat your depression and prevent a future relapse?
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addiction | Been around too many addicts, I can see the signs. I'm not dumb, and I know what lengths an addict will go to in order to lie and cover up anything they're doing to protect themselves. I was with somebody for way too long with an addictive behavior and I know the selfishness and arrogance that goes along with being deep into addiction. This weekend I was around a close family friend with her mom& son (3 y/o) downtown at an event. My friend's husband joined us in the evening, and I couldn't help but notice his constant removal of himself from the group. Always had an excuse to go away for 20 minutes at a time.... it happened about 3 times in the 2 hours we were all together. I know he is not stranger to alcohol binging and nicotine addiction, but I have a sneaking suspicion that its moved to something more or the frequency has increased. I'm sure my friend would know, but she's one to cover for him(or maybe in the dark herself)... like I used to be. idk... its just sad when you watch somebody spiral and there's nothing you can do. |
addiction | I'm addicted to Reddit - How can I stop? Hi! I'm terribly sorry if this is the wrong sub, I just need some help battling my Reddit addiction. It sounds silly to a drug addict, but maybe you guys have some insights? Isn't some of the same mechanisms at play here?
How can I stop completely with Reddit? It has a considerable negative effect on my life. I can't focus, everything in my real life seems boring compared to all the shit I can see here and I have given up a lot of my social life to be on Reddit. I update the site sometimes many times pr minute and I spend multiple hours on here everyday. Sometimes I can't sleep because of feel drawn to my mobile phone to check reddit.
I have tried for several years. I've been on Reddit for 6-7 years. Once in a while I try to stop and delete my account. This process has repeated itself many times, so I have concluded that deleting the account doesn't work.
Do you have any ideas to what might help me???
Thank you so much!
(If this is not the right sub, can you maybe point me in the right direction to a better one?) |
addiction | Haven't used since new year, really struggling today. Amphetamine was my drug of choice. So miserable with no motivation. I know i could get a few g's in 10 minutes and it's driving me insane. It's the first time I've had free time and disposable income since I stopped using. Keep thinking once won't hurt, but I know I'll be awake for days. Just needed to tell someone as I'm alone in this IRL. |
addiction | Laying next to my withdrawing-from-heroin husband. I found out about the habit a few months ago. I was terrified and disgusted thinking about it.
Then I found out about the needles-I thought he was just snorting it. That’s when I knew this was bigger than me and decided not to walk away.
The past few months he’s spent a grand a month (if not more) on it.
The other day he had a scare at work where he thinks he dropped his stash and his boss found it. He still has his job, but this is what he needed to scare him off it-mandatory drug tests
So he has decided to quit for good & even though he’s morning, sweating, tossing & turning, he is turning a corner and deciding to kick ole Boi out!
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addiction | The use of CBD in NA First off, I'm new to the fellowship and my recovery. I have almost 30days clean. I Used to be a heavy pot smoker and dabbled with most of the rave drugs that you can think of for years.
I thought enough is enough, time to rise above and make a positive change in my life.
I battle with the idea to whether I am truly an addict or not. But this isn't the point of this post.
I want to know other people's opinions about using CBD, as the medicine that it is, while enduring the journey of the 12 step program of NA.
I know some people would disagree upon it because I believe it is considered a mood altering substance although non narcotic non psychoative.
Aren't caffeine and tobacco mood altering substances aswell? Which are widely accepted, promoted, and used substances in NA.
Im not trying to look or think too deep into this but I would like to hear your opinions on the use of high quality regulated CBD extracted from industrial hemp.
It has done wonders for me since I've quit smoking weed.
I don't have any cravings to get high on marijuana or anything else for that matter.
Also helps me with sleep and helps regulate my pain when I have any.
There is a very small percentage of 0.3% of thc in the CBD (Federal Legal limit) that I have. It doesn't get me high but does help me relax and also takes away from my nicotine cravings.
I am a huge advocate of CBD.
How does anyone who has a lot of clean time feel about it?
I'd really appreciate your thoughts and comments.
Thank you :) |
addiction | I am a degenerate gambler. Hey guys, throwaway account for obvious reasons.
Like the title may suggest, I am a problem gambler, I am currently 18 years old, and my father is does also have a gambling problem - He doesn't know about my habit, however, my mother does.
I am in this subreddit just to type and put my thoughts together, over the last few months, Iv'e made roughly £10K through betting in online casinos (blackjack, poker, roullete mainly).
However, I had lost £5K, the few months before, so I am up around 5,000. I do not want to go back to how I felt, how helpless, hopeless, and lonely I felt when I had lost basically everything.
I have lied, and stolen to fund my habit.
What I am currently doing is withdrawing money from my bank account to give to my mother to put aside for me to save up. I feel powerless, and it makes me feel weak that I need to do this. I ultimately want to give up this addiction, it has made me fall behind at school, grades, socially too.
EDIT: My mother asked me yesterday if I still continue to gamble, and I said no, knowing that I am still addicted, and I do. I have roughly 3,000 in my bank account at the moment, I feel like I will deposit this to an online casino and I can't withdraw it because my mom will know I am still gambling. |
addiction | Cocaine addiction I know I'm an addict. No one knows I hide it well I guess. Some of my friends know I use but don't know I'm addicted. I hate it. I was hoping by posting this others will see and able to give advice and there own experiences. How it happened,how you stopped , what effects it did and how it changed your life. I honestly think it's the lonelines that led me to addiction I didn't see it coming but now I'm more alone than ever and I need to speak with people who understand. |
addiction | Mindfulness Meditation to Deal with Triggers I don't have all the answers. I'm currently coming up on 10 months of sobriety from sex addiction, including 10 months of abstinence from the use of pornography. In addition to going to SA meetings, weekly therapy, remembering to take my depression/anxiety medication and practicing healthy self-care, a major factor in my recovery has been mindfulness meditation.
Mindfulness meditation can help you to stop living in fantasy, like many of us do. It's the practice of becoming aware of your thoughts, acknowledging them and gently releasing those thoughts. When you practice regular meditation, you will find that mindfulness will leak out of your meditation and improve your day through giving you the ability to recognize lingering or festering thoughts.
Notice - mindfulness meditation is NOT about "clearing your mind." When we try to focus on "clearing our mind," it often has the opposite effect. Rather, the goal is to just concentrate on your breath.
Just sit in a comfortable position and focus on the breath.
When a thought comes (because it will), allow it to come. Recognize it and acknowledge that it's there.
Gently give yourself permission to dismiss the thought, as if to say "I see, you - you're there. Now I will go back to my breath."
Set a timer (I use the Insight Timer app) and start with a short amount of time like 5 minutes. Slowly increase that time.
When you meditate regularly, you will find answers in the stillness. A quiet mind is much easier to "reign in" and when you're triggered by a thought of a past sexual encounter, memory of getting drunk, smell or taste that brings you back, trigger location, provocative vision, etc., you'll be able to treat it with mindfulness. You'll be able to say "I see you. It's natural to notice you. And now I gently give myself permission to dismiss the thought." Being gentle with yourself is key. Don't beat yourself up.
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addiction | In and out of Recovery I’ve been in and out or “recovery” going on almost 3 years now. I’m 23 and have a 2.5 yr old daughter and an on and off ex.
I have a Percocet addiction. I LOVE percs. What drew me, and continues to draw me to the drug is the feeling. Every mg of that crushed up little blue (green, grey or yellow) pill is one of the best feelings I’ve ever felt. What sucks is that everything feels so perfect when I’m on a perc, in reality I destroy the people around me, but I feel good so I don’t care. Percs affect people in different ways, some people it fades them out and makes them feel good while being in and out of it, for me it was a little different. Percs were like cocaine or adderall for me. They would give me laser focus and make my brain work in
Overdrive. I process things a lot quicker and they give me an unmatched energy. I used to excel at school while consistently using them, which helped make them such a draw.
last November I got a text from my ex
Saying that she wasn’t happy with our relationship bc of what percs do to me. Now I thought things were perfect bc I was feeling
Good, but didn’t realize how much I was hurting the people around me. She wanted out, and wanted me in rehab. We sat down with her and my parents and discussed options, I was
Able to stay out of rehab bc I have a great sales
Job and didn’t want to lose it. We set up a plan, I would have no access to cash, share location of my phone, submit to drug tests, go to NA meetings etc, etc. Long story short I play the game for 2-3 months until I stop getting drug tested and get my money back I went right back to doing percs. Have been caught 2 more times by parents or the ex and will shape up until they relax their rules then I go right back to percs.
One of the things that makes recovery so difficult for me is my ex. We had a great relationship before and then the pregnancy really rocked us and I handled it terribly. I began to drink heavily and abuse drugs, and even woke up in at the hospital bc I overdosed even after that I only shaped up until the rules were relaxed. I also found out that when she wanted out she had just started another relationship, and kept that going secretly for about 6 months. I completely understood why bc of all I had done, but it still hurt like hell knowing she betrayed me and would be the main reason I relapse when I feel it’s hopeless. She used to be the one and only person I could trust and count on, and when I needed her most she was out. Now I can’t get back together with her even tho it’s all she wants, but I can’t and don’t think I ever will be able to trust her.
I just wanted to share my story because I know how fucking hard recovery is. You have to be strong and have the right supper group around you to succeed. But ultimately it’s up to you, if you don’t have the willpower to stop or call someone and ask for help then recovery is going to be nearly impossible. I’ve got almost 10 days now on my newest recovery and I still have multiple urges every single day. NA meetings help, but that’s only an hour or 2 out of the day, the other 23 are all on you.
If anyone ever needs anything don’t hesitate, I’ll do my best to help you anyway I can |
addiction | So I've got a survey It's regarding how drug addictions affect families and their dyanmics. Please take the time to answer this survey, it is all anonymous. The survey is 18+ only. Thanks! https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSdZ2TC_U1AySosXivrKNWx-LNIR1HSU-wxbUsUpGGEKTlmADg/viewform?usp=sf_link |
addiction | Just got out of rehab a few hours ago...help! Driving home from rehab now after 66 days. I'm feeling great but super nervous at the same time. 66 days ago I would have done literally anything for one more shot of cocaine and I want to stay clean more than anything. I'm not going back to my hometown, I will be living 8 hours away. I plan on getting a sponsor and working the NA program, going to meetings and building a sober support group. If anyone has any suggestions or feedback for me please anything will help me right now! |
addiction | I forgot to grow up I feel like in my addiction I forgot to become an adult. I always just did the bare minimum to get by... Any suggestions?
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addiction | Need help If I took someone to the hospital for crack addiction would they take her if she smoked it today? This hospital has a drug treatment thing (UPMC Pittsburgh) thanks. |
addiction | Trapped I'm a 35 year old addict. Currently i'm addicted to phenibut, klonopin and most recently meth. I've been depressed and anxious most my life, also diagnosed with ADHD and bipolar disorder. Mental illness runs in my family. Recently i got laid off from my job and that's when i started using meth to kill the boredom.
I feel trapped. I started using phenibut to control my behavior at work. I disliked my call center job so much i would lose my temper, pound my desk, make a scene etc. Phenibut eliminated that side of me and probably saved me from getting fired. However a negative side effect started showing up in that I could only sleep about 5 hours on average a night. Raising the dosage didn't help so I started illicitly obtaining klonopin and the side effect went away. The combination of 3 grams of phenibut a day and 2 mg of klonopin every other day worked well for about 6 months until I got laid off. Now I'm in a situation where I'm unemployed and addicted. Even if i were to flush all the drugs and get completely clean, my only work experience the last 20 years is in call centers. I can't deal with the stress of a call center job without something to take the edge off.
Regarding the meth, I know I could stop using it if I could just get back in some kind of routine. I need to find work but having all these addicitions weighing on my mind is creating so much self-doubt. BTW, I saw a Dr and asked him about phenibut addiction and he had no idea what it was. He prescribed me wellbutrin and atarax neither of which was any help.
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addiction | Looking for advice. My stepson is addicted to pills. Xanax for sure, and I suspect opioids as well. I am shopping around for in-patient programs in Florida. What should I look for? Can anyone recommend a facility? I called one place and the admission counselor was really awesome on the phone. After our conversation, I started thinking that the guy was kinda like a car salesman. Then I started reading the Google reviews... I'm just not sure who to trust. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. |
addiction | Loved ones of addicts: What were some subtle signs that they were addicted? What happened that made you know? I think my (ex)boyfriend is addicted to something, probably either opioids or benzos, but I'm not sure how to get his friends to listen to me about it. I've tried pointing out behaviors and things that I've noticed that makes me think it, but they all do their own drugs and are in denial. Plus, they don't live with him and don't see the same things that I do. I feel like the people that can help him just aren't listening to me.
We broke up after the last time he lied to me and we aren't on speaking terms. I'm still trying to move out of our apartment. He doesn't respect me and I don't trust him so his friends are the only people that can help him.
What are your stories? I'm hoping to compare my experiences with yours. I'm also open to advice on what else I could do. |
addiction | Why do so many people get mad when you call marijuana an addiction? White not being as bad for you as things like cocaine, it's the level of addiction and lifestyle lived that's comparable. And I've seen it. My city especially is one of the most pothead ridden cities in eastern Canada and you see what addiction, to something viewed as so basic, can do to people. And it's already been proven what long-term use from a young age does to the brain (rather than purely in adults), which is the most common form of use. Most people who smoke weed have been doing it since a young age, and I've seen the lifestyle it's created for these people.
While the substance by itself isn't necessarily harmful, it can be just as addictive, if not more in some cases. There's nothing in it alone that should be chemically addictive, but you see it time and time again in people who try to wean down or quit. They're angry, short-tempered, and can hardly focus without getting their "fix". They become on-edge if they haven't smoked, many of them not even being able to become "high" anymore. It's just become a complete state of existing for these people and they're no longer sure how to live when they're not on it. I've seen people so desperate to get pot when they ran out that they've resorted to robbing people or other gross lewd acts.
People make up excuses all the time, laughably going as far to call it their "medicine", despite being perfectly healthy individuals. They rave about the "health benefits" an about how it "cures cancer" when there's nothing wrong with these people medically to begin with. Going as far as making up "pain" to justify their use, when this "pain" is nothing more than withdrawal symptoms. But if you dare use that term, then they lose their shit at you. If it's not an addiction and they can "quit any time they want", why do they get so mad when you question them about it? Why can most of them hardly go a day without it? I've only ever known a small handful of people who were able to make it out and successfully "quit". After a few months of emotionally destructive withdrawals that is.
Well over half of my relationships have been with potheads (due to lack of selection here), and dating these people while not doing it yourself isn't exactly fun. Some days all they want to do is sit inside smoking pot, other days when you're actually gonna do something, like a date, they literally can't leave the apartment without having done it. When they were off the influence (rarely), they were bitter, miserable, and were always lashing out at me for the smallest things. Then once they "got their fix" would apologize.
Considering they share literally all the behaviors of addicts, especially denial, why isn't this a conversation we're having? Soon this will be legal Canada-wide and I'm concerned that this is something that will be even more normalized.
[Also I'm prepared to have many of the people I'm talking to lash out in the comments here to prove my point.] |
addiction | Thoughts of suicide Whenever I don't have meth I want to die, but the more I do meth the more i consider suicide as the most viable option. I don't know what I'm doing anymore and I'm just scared. Any advice? |
addiction | Thoughts on being 6 months off oxy Hello there all,
I was using about 90mg of oxy daily. It seemed sustainable, it didn't seem to be interfering with my life, and it gave me a pick up during a long day at work. There was also not a financial burden since it was almost free for me. Perfect storm, right?
I did not use socially, it was just for me. I wasn't hiding it as there were a few friends who also casually used, but I was not open about it with my GF. It took about 9 months for her to find one, and then it was out.
It was difficult because I didn't feel like I was an addict, but I knew that I couldn't just stop because of the physical dependency. For myself I went to a doctor for medical assistance (suboxone), and for my GF I went to addiction talk therapy.
The talk therapy was helpful and it forced me to introspect on the things that being on a drug all the time DID take away, mainly spending quality time with my GF. It did not stop, but it definitely was not a priority because I felt great all the time. It's funny how many little things this affects when you take a good hard look at it.
I tried to stop without Suboxone, and it was truly hell. I went on Suboxone and everything was better. I didn't feel sick, and I didn't feel high. It was a relief...but from what I read, people said that it was trading one dependency for another. I didn't like the prospect of that, but I persevered and did not touch oxy during treatment. It took about 3 months to wean off, and in the first 2 - 3 days there was mild anxiety. After this I just said screw it, and have not thought about it again.
Suboxone is amazing. TAKE IT AS PRESCRIBED. DON'T SLIP UP. It can be so easy to say, "What's one going to do, it's been 6 months...". This medication removes the physical dependency fairly quickly without disrupting your life. Ending it was about as serious as a hangover, and then you're free, physically. If you're hooked on oxy or any opiate, TRY THIS without using. It's a miracle...at least it was for me on 90mg a day.
Now, I'm having a hard time in therapy, however, as they are pressuring me to do 12 steps, go to group meetings, and put on a mantle of "addict" for the rest of my life. I don't drink other than weddings and social events, I don't use anything else and never did, and only started using because of availability.
I don't have cravings, I'm not 'high' on my ability to get over this, and I don't think I'm being delusional. I get sick thinking about where this could have led, and I'm rebuilding trust with my GF.
I don't want to feel like I'm broken for the rest of my life, and I feel like reading through the addiction literature and 12 steps, they're conditioning me to accept that I have an unbeatable weakness.
Is this last bit denial of addiction, or is 12 steps not for everyone?
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addiction | I truly cannot stop I am at a loss. I've tried finding a way to not have access to money, I've tried reminding myself of what I could lose...and I still cannot stop. And it's getting worse. I've probably spent 15k on cocaine in the last year, my SO has no idea, and my life is not falling apart, so no one else is trying to stop me. Please help. |
addiction | Need advice for addicted brother. To start off I am not looking for final answers here, but only suggestions. Me and my family are planning to have a discussion about this later this week and I just want to get some advice from people who have already gone through similar situations.
My brother has been struggling with addiction and depression for a very long time now and this has lead to some very bad behavior. It got to the point that I stopped talking to him or only had very surface level conversations with him so he wouldn't blow up at me. Eventually, one thing lead to another and he was sentenced to jail for about two months.
While in jail, my sister and I reconnected with him over email and had some of the realest conversations we've had in half a decade. He really seemed to want to get clean. But then he got out and started hanging out with his old friends and girlfriend again, who were toxic. To keep things short, he's spiraled down again and now may be worse than I've ever seen him.
His toxic relationship ended with a huge fight and now his ex is actively trying to destroy his social life. He's now very, very paranoid and seems to be going insane. Along with this he can't hold a job, has started selling again, and is talking about getting an "illegal job," where he would have to lead a double life.
I think he's doing meth and other "harder" drugs again. He's very resistant to counseling, but I truly believe the only way he'll ever get out of this is if he goes to rehab.
So, for the redditors who have been a similar situation, what did you do? I'm thinking about calling the cops on him and getting him sent to jail. That really does seem to be the only thing that has helped him in the situation. What else can we do?
TLDR: Brother relapsed and is now worse than I've ever seen him. Need advice.
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addiction | Home rehab is like doctor assisted suicide So several days ago, at the urge of my counselor, I tried to go to rehab.
Background: former meth user and cook for 12 years. Currently a very talented drunk. I drink 2 to 3 pints of vodka a day.
Counselor convinced me to go to a detox. She suggested my local major hospital. I gave in and went. They said they're not a real detox center and do I have 3 options: get transferred to a detox center which will cost about 12k. They could put me in an involuntary psych hold, it'd cost about 7k. Or they could send me home on a bunch of Librium and phenregan. I chose option 3 because I can't afford any other option..
Funny thing is, Librium and vodka combine fantastically. So I did 5 days off Librium along with my vodka. And here I am just as drunk as before but now also craving Librium. Thanks doc. Wtf am I supposed to do now |
addiction | Just got back from treatment 90 days at an all boy adolescent rehab, todays my first day back home and goddamn. Didn’t expect how overwhelming it would be. So much to do, so much temptation already. Friends saying I’m a new person, parents saying I’m a new person. New sc and number so I got nobody on my social, starting up gonna be difficult as fuck but so worth it. |
addiction | So, this just happened... Yes, I'm going to Reddit in the hopes that someone has a decent answer to this... incoming wall of text:
I have a 4 year old kid who is in pre-school. A very good, very expensive preschool. I'm recently divorced and found myself flirting with one of her teachers. Most likely about 1/2 my age - but in every single way, she is 'my type.'
It never went anywhere - but the flirting was fun.
Fast forward to the end of last year. She gets fired from her job as a pre-school teacher for some BS violation of policy (she didn't report when a boy went into the girls bathroom.) Anyway, I've used her as a babysitter a few times since then.
I am totally and completely attracted to this woman. So, I call her up because I was taking my daughter to an aquarium and just wanted to see if she would want to go with us. She did, and we all 3 had a great time. Kinda ended the night with a "If you ever want to hang out, call me thing."
So, again, being a divorced dad and coping with all the stress of that, I decided to call her last week to see if she would want to go out. She said yes and we made plans for this thursday and friday night as I don't have my daughter those two days.
Thursday, she calls me up - says she is sick as a dog and can't make it. I offer to be her "doc" and she said she just wants to be alone and rest - can't keep anything down and basically is suffering from a terrible flu.
Thursday night, she calls me and said, "Can I come over and sleep on your sofa and watch movies." - Of course, I said yes. I went and picked her up. We hung out, watched some movies and fell asleep on the couch.
This morning, I get up and go to work. She is still passed out on the couch.
I have security cameras inside and outside the house. My system pings me that there is a car in my driveway. I open up the cameras and see her walk out of the living room, and get into the back seat of some car for 3 or 4 minutes.
When she gets out, she goes back into my house, gets on the sofa and breaks out a drug kit - unrolls some aluminum foil, pops a glass tube in her mouth and starts burning whatever is on the foil and smoking it... like a lot.
Then she passes out on the sofa and goes back to sleep.
She brought drugs into my house. Smoked them on my sofa. Violated my trust. Introduced my house (the outside at least) to a drug dealer - and I had ABSOLUTELY ZERO IDEA WHAT-SO-EVER she was using. None. Completely escaped me...
Lots of details left out - but my question is this:
1) Do I try to 'help her'
2) Can I even help her?
3) Should I help he when i have a kid?
4) Do I go home, tell her what I saw, call her an uber and tell her to have a nice life?
5) Do I take her to dinner, and reveal I know what she did/does - and see what happens?
-- I've never dealt with an addict before and I'm at a loss. |
addiction | How to deal with life??? I quit weed bc I had to. I fucked up my life. I’m drinking pretty heavily now instead. I signed up for a substance abuse program bc I know if I keep drinking I’ll prob turn into an alcoholic. I’m currently drinking almost every day, after I get home from work around 9, about 4-6 beers til I pass out. This place keeps telling me I should be quit, but is not offering solutions on how to do so. I feel judged that I haven’t quit yet. I feel like a failure. How do I stop? I don’t see myself as an addict and I would like to drink with friends maybe 2 times a month, and would like to stop drinking alone, but I have no idea where to start. Don’t know what this treatment center is for if they’re just telling me things I know I should stop doing?? |
addiction | Worried about substance abuse long term. So throwaway for obvious reasons. I have used cocaine casually for 4 years. Picking up the pace recently to about every weekend; I'm a recent college grad and have a well-paying job so I can afford it now. I drink heavily, to quantify it in one medium about a quarter of a fifth of whiskey every night (I know that's not ridiculous but it's not healthy).
I'm becoming very concerned about my substance abuse between alcohol and blow. The blow is only a weekend thing, but I drink the above amount every night. I know this is a paragraph but I've been using tonight so a bit amped. I'm just looking for some advice/words on my concerns. I've gotten myself into trouble with my drinking before and sought therapy, but I'm concerned I'm slipping into a deeper, more drastic hole. |
addiction | 30 Days NO Marijauna | Day 1 Vlog Honestly, doing these vlogs and keeping my mind occupied has helped A LOT with the cravings of marijuana. Day 1 of 30. Although I'm a recluse, I did my best in this vlog to make my apartment as exciting as possible :P As time goes on and I get more comfortable, I will be vlogging in public.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sX8QEb7-ojw&t=1s |
addiction | Psilocybin as treatment My girlfriend is battling a cocaine addiction. She was clean for three months and is now dealing with relapse, as is common. I worry. I've done cocaine too and have dealt with quitting, though I don't classify myself as an addict. I can usually stay away from it except in rare instances. She on the other hand was very deep into that lifestyle and has triggers and temptations everywhere.
I've been reading that psychedelic mushrooms have been tested and show some signs of being an effective treatment. How would a psilocybin treatment go? Is it simply a dose, or are the patients undergoing simultaneous therapy?
Has anyone tried mushrooms to kick an addiction? I just want to help, but I'm powerless, and I know that. |
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